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Thursday, September 3rd, 2009
8:08 pm	Meme Thing I used to do these things all the time! Wonder if I'm still good at them.. 100 Truths Meme! LAST... 1. Last beverage: Sunkist 2. Last phone call: My pops 3. Last text message: My boo 4. Last song you listened to: The theme song to the anime "Pheonix" 5. Last time you cried: Last night when I was being sentimental. It was just a few tears, but it's the closest to crying I've been in a long while. HAVE YOU EVER... 6. Dated someone twice: I think I have dated two people twice.. Double or nothing? 7. Been cheated on: Not to my knowledge 8. Kissed someone & regretted it?: I don't regret anything in life that I can learn from. And I learn something fom every kiss! Lol 9. Lost someone special?: I don't think so. I'm pretty clingy to special people 10. Been depressed?: Yup, I don't know if you can really appreciate love without spending sometime feeling like you don't have it. 11. Been dumped?: Yeah, that's typically how it works. LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12. teal 13. light purple 14. caucasion (HAHAHA JK!) THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: I have probably made more lasting friends this year since... well, any year since highschool. And the year's not even over! 16. Fallen out of love: No not this year. Most of this year I have spent ronery and sadry arone. 17. Laughed until you cried: Oh yeah, good friends, Star Trek and a little bit of booze is a good formula my friends. (Even if it is DS9) 18. Met someone who changed you: Changed the way I thought? Changed what I know? Yes. Changed me? I don't think so. Focused me maybe. 19. Found out who your true friends were: My true friends are those that stay by my side through thick and thin. I am constantly discovering who my true friends are. 20. Found out someone was talking about you: Um, I guess? 21. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list: Yup yup yup! 22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: All of them! 23. How many kids do you want to have: I don't know... 24. Do you have any pets: Just two kittens!! 25. Do you want to change your name: No! Even if it is the name of a tirlet 26. What did you do for your last birthday: I turned 24 27. What time did you wake up today: 6:40 ish 28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Talking online to a unicorn 29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Sex. 30. Last time you saw your father: When I stopped by his apt to drop off some Lord of the Rings Trading Card Game Trading Cards. We'll play them eventually! 32. What are you listening to right now: Straight up now tell me do you really want to love me forever! Oh Oh OH! Or Am I caught in a hit and Run???? 33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: One of the engineers at my work goes by Tom. 34. What’s getting on your nerves right now?: Phone thinks it is out of batteries and keeps buzzing making me think I am getting textz. 36. What's your real name: Sore Wa Himitsu Desu 38. Zodiac sign: Piceses 39. Male or female: I prefer the Females 40. Elementary: my dear Data 41. Middle School: Pedo 42. High school: Drama 43. Hair color: Dark Brown 44. Long or short: Depends on the temp ;) 46. Do you have a crush on someone?: Goodness yes 47. What do you like about yourself?: I've made it this far! 48. Piercings: Nope! 49. Tattoos: Nope! 50. Righty or lefty: Nope! I mean Righty FIRSTS : 51. First surgery: None yet 52. First piercing: None yet 53. First tattoo: None yet 54. First best friend: None yet (just kidding! I would say MATT OOOOOKELLY!) 55. First sport you joined: Soccer? T Ball? I dont 'member 56. First pet: George the first 57. First vacation remembered: Corpus Chrity. Lots of sand and those little clam things that burrow into the sand. 58. First concert: Not yet 59. First crush: Some girl name Brandi Dunn. Wonder what she's up to. 60. First love: Rachel Surber RIGHT NOW: 61. Hey it's your tomorrow 62. C'mon, it's everything 63. Catch that magic moment, and do it right 64. What are you waitin' for 65. It's right now YOUR FUTURE : 66. Want kids?: Like... baby goats? 67. Want to get married: Like... with children? 68. Careers in mind?: Like... pro wrestler? WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE PREFERRED SEX(ES)? 69. Lips or eyes: Eyes catch my atention more than lips, but they're not as fun to kiss. 70. Hugs or kisses: Huga are more univeral. 71. Shorter or taller: Short people ain't got no reason to live 72. Older or Younger: I like em both 73. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous can be romantic? They aren't mutually exclusive? 74. Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach? I like both. 75. Tattoos or piercings: Tattoos! 76. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive 77. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship 78. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant. I don't want no trouble. HAVE YOU EVER : 79. Kissed a stranger: Nope. 80. Fell on the head: Not yet. 81. Lost glasses/contacts: Nope! Which is kind of surprising really. 82. Had sex on first date: Good grief, no. 83. Broken someone’s heart: I don't think so? 84. Had your own heart broken: Oh yeah, it was bad. 85. Been arrested: Not yet. 86. Turned someone down: Umm, I guess so? But not really. I'm not exactly opverflowing with propositions. 87. Cried when someone died: I don't know if i have ever really known anyone particularly well that has died. 88. Broken a bone: Not yet. DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 89. Yourself: I don't exist! 90. Miracles: Absolutely 91. Love at first sight: It's happened to me! 92. Heaven: We're in heaven (dance music insues) 93. Santa Claus: I believin the IDEA of Santa Claus 94. Angels: I couldnt have gotten this far on my own. 95. Kissing on the first date: It worked for me! ANSWER TRUTHFULLY: 96. Is there one person you want to be with right now?: It hurts that I'm not with 'em 97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?: Not yet! 98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: Define faithful... ^^ 99. What’s the one thing you cannot live without?: A reason for life (todoketaaaaaai!!) 100. Posting this as 100 Truths?: Nope. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 23rd, 2009
4:14 pm	Maybe I'll start using this again! Maybe not! Stay Tuned! Current Mood: amused (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 6th, 2008
4:48 pm	I got a job in Dallas! I'm an engineering analyst, I'll have salary and benefits and all sorts of things. So this is a shout out to all my Dallas homies, I think I'll be living here: http://www.apartmentfinder.com/details.aspx?aptid=219877 I'll be roomies with my bro and take the dart rail as much as possible. Expect some kind of house warming party! It will be a total cocktail party, all atendies will wear ties and EXTEND THIER PINKY WHEN DRINKING. lol Wish me luck, things will be hectic for a month or two. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 26th, 2006
3:03 am	long time no post I haven't updated this thing in a very long time, but maybe I'll start up soon, life has been active lately. (Comment on this)
Monday, May 8th, 2006
4:22 am	ugh, sometimes I understand why they refer to death as 'sweet release' Sooo much studying after working all weekend (O_o) Tests in 6 and a half hours then thisll be aaaal over. sjn utn jtrhn wjkn., well, I'll still have a big project to do, and work starts up full time on thursday. full time work, bleh, Im gunna ask matt to give me my 2 days off next to each other this year, and always the same two days so i never have to work like 10 days in a row. Okay, now I'll go back to studying, or go to sleep and wake up early. Sorry for all of the typos, this is an emberassing post. Meant less to be complaining and more to be distracting me from the tortures of study. PS A Cauchy sequence implies convergence and a convergent sequence implies that it is cauchy. It's a double implication. Remember that, it'l be on the final. The LJ Final. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 11th, 2006
2:43 am	Watch the fat slide right off! I think Mr. George Forman has changed my life with his lean mean grilling machine (it's in grilling colors too!). Instead of the regular hamburger and fries tonight I ate some grilled chicken and sliced potatos. A real meal! And it took less than 10 minutes and no work. Boy howdy. It also makes sausages and stuff. And it cooks vegetables. And if you make hamburgers, the fat drips right off! but dont worry, you can still pour it back ontop of the burger for that added heart-attack flavor! (jkjk, Im not THAT unhealthy). But anyway, that was a great gift to be sure. MATH CLUB IS STRESSING ME OOOUT At least I wont be the prez much after this. school in general has been pretty lame ately. But at least it hasnt been too hard. I havent seen Jessica much this week, we've both been sick and had things like work and school going on. Sometimes when it's sick it's sad to be alone though =/ Hopefully we'll get to see each other in the next few of days if she ever finishes her homework! I also made hashbrowns! They were pretty good. My quest now is to find what it cant grill!! It even grilled up a microwave burrito (but the fat didnt slide off of that). It had that nice grilled feel to it though. MMM mm. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 27th, 2006
7:09 am	Really tired and Reallly happy. Today I saw my grandparents who were in town and we had an impromptu birthday partry thing and they got us a big rich cake and a relaly nice computer chair, and some money! Also we talked for a really long time about mom's counselor Donna and how things were going with our lives and future and stuff. I really love them a lot. Then we came home and Jessica Lauren Marissa and Rachel were in my room all just chillin out, and that was super cool, soon the guys came in and we all just talked and in general hung out. Then I hung out with Jessica for a while. I've been holding off on a post about Jessica and I because I didn't know how I felt, and I still don't really know how I feel, but I know I love her... I know she's going through a lot right now, but I want to help her. I have this need to feel needed and important, not just the love of the week, and I feel like Jessica needs me, and for that I need her. We love each other and are there for each other.. our relationship hasnt been too fast, but we've gotten to know each other very well very quickly. She really makes me happy. She runs her fingers through my hair and makes me food and spends time with me and talks and listens. I need all of that right now. Times are changing, and today looks different than yesterday, and tomorow looks differenter still than it did not too long ago. Sometimes it seems like things will all work out in the end. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
3:26 am	Sometimes when you've got yourself in a little bit of a life-funk, then helping a friend can really turn things around <3 I think being a friend is as wonderful as having one. (Comment on this)
Monday, February 20th, 2006
12:16 pm	Monday This last weekend was a blast! I went and saw my old pal Robbie and the Teague and we ate sushi, got drunk on saki, drew a very drunk comic jam, watched super friends (drunk) and of course, played drunk mario party (did I mention the drinking?) But seriously, it was a lot of fun! Met a guy named Petie too, who was very cool. We didn't get to spend a whole lot of time with the gang, butthe time we did spend was great, I hope its not another year before we see any of them again. We also got to see Daniel and Kara last night which was as unexpected surprise, and watched a movie called 'What's up Doc' Which I liked very much even though it starred Barbra Striesand (she actually kind of reminded me of a young version of my mom in that movie). I thought it was funny all the way through, a great movie that always made you wonder what was going to happen next and never left you bored. I also had a really nice conversation with Kara that reminded me tht friends like Daniel and Kara aren't around just for the parties, but they care about us too <3 Oh! And last Friday Jessica came over and helped me film my film and video project! It was really cool of her, it's a long drive, and I'm glad she was willing to make it and bring so many outfits and everything, she's kind of the person I was thinking of playing the role when I wrote the script, so it's great that it worked out. When it was all done, it really felt like we had accomplished something. About a week ago I helped her with some math stuff too, and she stuck around and drew with us and stuff, so I hope we'll be seeing more of her, she's definetly cool. We're going to try to film another video today just for fun, but I think it's going to kind of depend on the waeather and how much time we have. I also got a call from Amy and it was great to hear from her again. I think I'm finally over her (okay, I've said that how many times) but there's still a part of me that I think is scared of her, so it means a lot that she called me instead of me having to call her to spur some conversation and stuff between us. I'm glad she wants to be friends, because I want to be friends too. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
7:13 am	Happy Valentines Day!!! I still like Valentines day. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 2nd, 2006
6:19 pm	School Chicks and Art School is so great this semester! Most of my classes are easy, or at least have easy textbooks, and studying or homework is not relentless, and the tests don't all coincide. Its amazing! The math class I thought was going to be reeeeeeeally hard is only realy hard, but is balanced by being equally interesting, and the physics class that was supposed to be off the chain hard, so far is pretty easy to folow and the prof. doesnt ask a lot out of us (We derived why and how E=mc squared the other day. It only took like 10 minutes, and was super simple. Now thats cool!) so it's at least as cool as it is interesting too. My film and video class is a lot more work than I thought it was going to be, but like EVERYONE in there is kickass, including the teacher, and the projects are fun. So school is both easy and cool this semester, a winning pair! - On the downside, I met a lot of chicks, and I had a class with this super cool girl I've known for a while, but none of them want to go out with me, or at least already have boyfriends. Oh well, looks like I'll be buying myself a box of chocolates this 14th. No biggie though, at least Michael will keep me company in that regard. A relationship would really kind of muck up the life I've become accustomed to now anyway though (time-free and care-free, I call it "O'Kelly 101"), but there are more than a few times when I wouldn't mind just cuddling with someone and watching a movie together, or at the very least, having a serious conversation with someone. Sometimes I wish I could just go to a girl and be like 'hey, I don't want to touch your girl parts or anything, but you're super-cool, and you're also lonely, so let's just cuddle up and watch Shaun of the Dead or something,' but somehow, as inocent as my intentions may be, I suppose there's no way that can sound not creepy. Le Sigh. - I've been drawing a lot though! I drew this pretty cool picture of Dead Redd and Clarence in a delorean, just out of nowhere and for fun. Right now Michael's helping me put together a deviant art account, but it's hard because the only things I've drawn since I was in highschool mostly went to my gfs. I don't want to put stuff online that I drew 4 years ago! So instead, I'm trying to draw a million things to all upload. The more I cruise Deviant Art too, the more that scary little guy inside of me tries to convince me that I can still go to art school in a year. Every time I see someone's art-desk or animator desk, or pictures of an animation studio, or test animation and character designs for tv shows being made right now, my heart skips a beat. I'm not as good as them, but I think I have every bit as much potential, if not more, than a lot of them had. I want to be a part of it! One thing I'm doing is pushing hard to become an editorial artist for out school paper. They need a cartoonist and an illustrator. Michael called dibs on the cartoonist, since he found the add, but I read a few editorials and drew up some comics far better than the ones we had had, and sent it in with an illustration resume. Hopefully we'll get the job! We made a pact to give them a new comic EVERY DAY until we at least hear back from them. That at least will show how dedicated, and potentially responsible and disciplined we can be ... (with deadlines anyway, heh heh). So hopefully some of this 'artsey' on-the-job-experinece will make me look at least a little less like a total loser walking into art school with a Bachelor of Science in Mathematics someday. Maybe. If nothing else, it'll get the old hand drawin' comics again. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 7th, 2006
8:44 am	Yay, we've been having a lot of fun lately, though soon I guess I have to get ready for school and math club thing in San Antonio, ugh, I really don't want to go. Maybe I can say a relative died or something. School will be pretty bitchin this semester but I'm really mad at myself for not getting more done over the break, I really wanted to draw some storyboards and at least atempt to put together a portfolio or something, but no, I spent it either depressed or partying. Oh well, I still have another week, though I bet it'll be slow and boring. ENTERTAIN ME. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 2nd, 2006
4:45 am	I dont post unless I've got a lot to say, sorry New years 2006!!!!!!! Wow, I went to a blastin' new years party this year! Originally I was going to lay low and hang out with my dad, but I decided to drop by Rachel's party and say hi, but got wrapped in it and it was a lot of fun. Everyone was laughing and falling over each other, and I was totally cool about Amy being there. I feel like I'm finally over her emotionally. I still love her, but I dont feel like I need to make her happy or get her atention anymore, which is an amazing feeling, I can just be myself. So anyway, I did some things at the new years party I didn't expect. I drank a lot... a looooooooot. More than I ever have before. I think towards the end of the night I was a little scared at how far Id gone cuz I wanted to leave RIGHT THEN. Aparently I had been kind of touchy with Amy though, which makes me really emberassed cuz I dont remember it at all, and it must have just been because I was subconciously still a little too comfortable around her. She seems understanding about it, but I think it bothered her for other reasons. I feel sorry for her, because shes changed her whole life to avoid drama and it seems like no matter where she goes she can't get away from it. She said something about swearing off people and that might be what she has to do for a while, because it seems like all the people that push themselves into her life (me included) bring drama with them. I hope things work out for her though. Anyway, I also smoked a cigarette.. now I'm not proud that this happened, I guess, but it is of some significance, it's symbolic of something I guess. Last year had someone put a cigarette in my mouth and lit it, I wouild have spit it out and said, no, not cool. But this year, I let two pretty girls talk me into it, and it was really exhilirating, like before I knew what was going on, I had a cigarette in my mouth, and before I could even think about whether I wanted to smoke it or not I was already puffing in, and everyone was happy, and it was like a big rush. Like your first kiss. You don't really know what's happening, and once you've started you're like what's going on? But before you can even ask yourself that, you're already in too deep, and... I dunno. It wasn't even the cigarette which I felt no kind of buzz off, it was just trying something new, something I would have never tried before. I've changed a lot in the last month or two..a whole lot. It's probably not very clear, even to those closest to me, but I've changed a lot, and I think it's because sometimes when life gets just shit-hit-the-fan bad, you have to change, or you'll just be miserable the rest of your life. I think that's what happened with Amy when she went to college, she was miserable for a while until she just realized, she HAD to change, or she'd just be miserable for the rest of her life. Well I've changed. I'm more open-minded. I'm totally cool with Amy and whatever she has to do. I'm cool with my friends, I'm cool with people that drink or smoke if that's what theyre into. I'm not afraid of failure because I know I have friends and family that will help me through the bad times. I don't try to take responsability for everything that has or will happen in my life, because I've realized how little control I really have over any of it anyway. My new life philosophy: Change what you can, and accept what you can't change. If you do those two simple things, you'll always be happy. The only hard part is admitting you can't cchange something and just accepting it. But anyway, I dont intend to ever smoke again, I didn't feel anything from it, that is until the next morning, when I felt like my hang-over was 3 times as big as it ought, and my throat was dry, and I could feel a stench on my tongue throat and in my nose that would not dissipate until late in the day. bleh, it has to be one of the grossest feelings. But it's strange, because now I'm not so judgemental about smoking. I dont think people should do it, but I won't think less of those that decide to, not because I smoked one, but because... that's how I've changed, and been changing. So anyway... New Years was big for me, and hopefully it's a small step towards all of 2006 being big for me. A lot could happen, and I'm excited about the possabilities! Not a thing is tieing me down! I suppose I don't have any new years resolutions, except to live life to the fullest!(lol, scheesey) and probably lose weight because I feel like I've really let myself go. Also, be more responsible about little things, like doing chores around the house before thy pile up, taking vitamins and watching my health. I don't feel like becoming a haelth nut or a super model, but fast food every day? C'mon, that's irresponsible both financially and nutritionally. So anyway, I also want to get like Buddha style third-eye like in tune with what it is I really want. I don't like being single, but as it is, I gotta work with what I got, and I think the best thing for me to do is figure out where I'm going, what makes me happy and stuff, then try to find a girl that fits with that, if we fit really well, then I'll fall in love. So I may or may not have a girl in 2006. But I'll have me. And hey, it's been a long time since I've really spent some time with me. So I'm looking forward to it. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 26th, 2005
3:45 am	2005 A lot has happened in 2005 for me, it's definetly going to be one of those years I remember by number. Like many years from now, it'll be like 2005... oh yeah, I remember that one. Unlike 2001. What happened in 2001? I was a junior in High School or something...? Did I get my first kiss in 2001? I don't even remember. But 2005 I'll remember. Let's see, in a listish type fasion, I'll name off what all happened. College was eh, I became president of the math club. My mom started drinking again, I moved out of my house, my mom tried to kill herself, she started dating an old friend of mine... wow, all of that seems like a long time ago.. it was a big part of my life though. 2005 is the only year I've ever ran away. It's also the only year I've ever had a sex life (so far, ha cha cha). TMI? It's the first year I went to a second prom, also the first time I went to a not-my-own prom. Not that that's bad, but by now, hopefully it's the last HS prom I'll be atending. Except maybe if I have a daughter and I'm going as a chaparone. That's right. On the outside she'll say I hate you get out of my life, but on the inside she'll apreciate my overbearing and protective way of showing I care and don't want that Billy kid to feel her up even if he is really nice and she thinks shes ready for it. Let's see.. in 2005 I went on my first long-time trip with long-time girlfriend. First time I ever spent money I earned on a vacation I earned. First time I ever walked on the beach just to do it cuz it's cool. First time to rip up a map.. first time to stay (by last resort) in a sleezy 'hooker motel' (although sans the hooker, thank god). First time to go to any 'non-disney world' part of Florida, and I think 2005 is also the first year I ever bought my own airline tickets and flew on a plane by myself, oh, and the first year I missed a flight (yeah, that's one to remember '05 for). First time my girlfriend broke up with me, ending only my second thus-far serious relationship. Also, this year marks the first year I've freaked out because of a break-up, done a lot of stupid/unhealthy things, and began the very slow process of finding out what really makes me happy. Art? Myself? The future? Short-term rebound relationships? Anything but this? Maybe 2006 will hold the answers! First year I made a C in a college course (and it was a math one too, oye, bye bye GPA!). First time I was the usher at a wedding, first time I went to a bachelor party.. Oh, and ironically enough that I remember it now and it has nothing at all to do with the bachelor party, 2005 is the first year I ever got what I would consider 'drunk' and didn't end up becoming violently sick because of it. The wedding was great though, and I've made some very good friends with Daniel and Kara this year. That's defiently a good '05 memory. Although glazed over a bit, the most memorable things from this year will probably be the first time I moved out, that apartment has changed me a lot. Figuring things out for myself and doing them myself has opened my eyes to a lot of things. It hasn't like made me bitter or been worse than I expected, but I think it has drained me some.. I'm starting to get that whole trapped here, tied to my responsabilities type feeling going, and I'm not so thrilled about it. I'm having a lot of fun, but I can't shake this feeling that since early november, everything I've done has pretty much just been an effort to distract me from the harsh reality that is my boring life. What I do in my life is fun, but what I do with my life is boring and unfulfilling. Even though I'm surrounded with friends and family that make me happy every day, thinking of a future that doesnt go futher than this literally depresses me, yet I'm not motivated enough to actually do anything about it (I get that from my mother!), so that depresses me even more... When I'm in long-term relationships I can feign purpose in life with love and happiness and sharing with someone else and all that jazz - it gives me something with meaning to look forward to tomorow for - but when I'm not, I'm kind of emptified. Or as I like to call it 'pueposelessness filled.' Maybe I would be happier if I was more religous, or had higher-set/less-ambigous goals. Goals I can actually control too. Getting married someday is officially crossed off of the 'goals I have any control over' list. Whether or not a future relationship turns into a marriage, I've decided, isn't going to be based on what I think do believe or feel, but will more likely occur due to a coincidental combination of luck, miracles, time-of-life circumstances and a helpless unadmitting feeling on both parties that sticking with this one is at least slightly better than looking for someone else. Not to sound cynical, but the whole 'fall in love first then get married' thing is just wearing a tad thin with me. In the past I've put way too much chips out on the table gambling that this is the one - I think Amy was my 'double or nothing' - and in the end I feel like no matter what I did, I would have ended up losing... losing a lot, in some ways it feels like I've lost a part of myself. But in the future I'm betting little, and saving the real big chips for when I've got a marriage backing my bets. It'll be like emotional insurance, and the emotions will be less of a bet and more of an investment. So in the meantime relationships will just be for fun, and I won't start out betting the farm, I'll just bet a fence post or two. If she's pretty, maybe even a whole bail of hay. So anyway. 2005 was big. Hopefully 2006 will be not so dramatic, but moreso revealing. And helpful. But overall... less expensive. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
12:32 pm	Big College update So I've been looking at colleges some more. The big talk around the apartment water-cooler these days is some place in Portland Oregon, Rachel found it and turned Raney onto it, and Michael and I have both kind of listened with perked ears. Once Rachel talked to me about it for a while, I liked the idea. Portland is a pretty cool place, close to Seattle and California, both pretty big and well known cities with a lot going on. Also, the weather is nice, and the scenery between the beaches and mountain ranges would be wonderful, not to mention Portland itself is sizable, but not intimidating. The more we talked though, the more I realized that Rachel had compared prices, housing, percent admittance, freshman class size, scholarships, and everything you could feasibly think of, EXCEPT for the actual degree plans and education quality. Her take is that anywhere you go you're going to get about the same education, just coming from different people. I kind of understand that, but in my position, I have to totally disagree. She's just trying to get away and do something, so any education is fine with her, as long as it isn't here, so her goal is to find the most feasible and reasonable education possible. I, however, am rearranging my whole life, so I want some degree of knowledge that I'm doing it for the best possible reasons, ie, an education most fitting to what I really want to learn. That said, as much as I've seemingly fallen in love with SVA, I have certain problems with the degree plan. I think that if I went there, I would have to major in animation, just because, damn, that's cool. EVERY class on the animation major requirement sounded like my biggest geek dreams come true. The problem with their illustration and cartooning degrees is that they are both a bit stretched, and the cartooning degree seems to cover so much, and I'm afraid my actual interest in comic books as a whole covers very little. Not to mention they don't necessarily emphasize getting you a job out of college right after you get your cartooning degree. Animation appealed to me here because you work with animators later on, and directors, and you actually take classes on how to get jobs and secure jobs in the field of animation, and SVA has people work with you when putting your senior port folio together to get a job out of college. That sounds awesome. But the more I looked over the courses, the more I started to wonder.. Do I really want to be an animator? I don't know. My interest in the field of animation is that of story-telling, of creating. Animating, purely, just seems like doing the dirty work. There doesn't seem to be any classes on story-boarding or directing or writing or anything implying more than making a character go from point a to point b. That's one of the things I REALLY liked about the minor they offered at Ringling. Sure it's just a minor attached to an illustration major, but the courses you take are so versatile, you take a class on film and video language, a class on story-boarding, classes on character design and development, environmental expression, and so on, still preparing you for the animation process, but more on the initiating and creating level than the nitty gritty down to business level. That kind of conceptual creation is a lot more what I'm looking for, rather than just making art move. So I don't know, while SVA might secure me a position in the animation field, would it really be a position I would want? Would it be the type of position I could climb the ladder in? If I got more of the education I wanted, such as at Ringling, would I really be able to use it? I don't know, there's still a lot of looking to do. Another bonus to Ringling is that if I don't immediately get a job in the field of animation out of school, I still have the illustration major I could fall back on, which would help me do things like independent comics or children's storybooks or other odds and ends, whereas if something didn't work out with my animation degree at SVA.... oh well.... So Anyway, I've still got a lot to look into. Although I've only really looked into 2 or 3 schools I guess, they've helped me a lot in thinking about what it is I'm really going to college for and what I really want to get out of it. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:21 pm	Usually I pride myself in finding joy or happinesss in whatever life throws me, but when you can be happy no matter what happens, it's nearly impossible to figure out what you really want. I wish I wasn't limited to living only one life. (Comment on this)
Monday, November 28th, 2005
10:24 pm	Amy and I broke up this last week, things have changed so much. I went to visit her at Ringling, the art school she's going to, and we worked a lot of things out. She was very sweet and talked to me, and helped me and did everything for me and with me. I want to go to art school now. I feel like I fell in love with Ringling, but already I'm not quite sure it's what I really want if I'm dropping everything to go off. My roomates like SVA a lot, and I'm not sure if the cartooning stuff they have on thier website is more along the lines of what I'm really interested in doing anyway, rather than illustration. I don't know though, I definetly want to talk to some students and stuff too. I did the whole fastweb and collegeboard thing, and it's really cool how easily it is to get interested and involved. Anyway, I still have a lot of work to do with it, putting together a portfolio and all. Life seems different now. I feel like this last week was perhaps one of the most enlightening things thats ever happened, I feel like I've been living in tunnel vision my whole life, and now I'm more open, and more alive. I had a blast and it's sad that its over. The week, the relationship.. everything. But I'm glad about the future, and that's really what I'm spending most of my time trying to think about anyway. Hopefully I can post more about my college search ideas here as I learn more. (Comment on this)
Monday, November 21st, 2005
6:53 am	AAAA! I'm nervous and excited at the same time, NERVOUS AND EXCITED Those are like wierdly opposite feelings, So I'm feeling all wierdly backwards. But that's what I am. 12 hours and I'll be at the airport! 15 hours I'll be landed in Tampa! yayayyayayayaay no more math club! No more phys 2311! No more anything! Just vacation and Amy. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
5:23 pm	MARIO KART DS Dont give me that bull about waiting until Christmas to get the money buy it and when you do, my friend code is 189038 083814 Add me. Play me. I want to ge a lot of friends! My whole lfe is wifi- I have wireless at home and at school, so I want to get online and play people. You hear me robbie? The Teague? Lets go! I BRING THE MF BLUE PARKS!!! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
3:40 am	Why Am I seriously considering going to a big expensive art school at this time of my life?? Ringling, or SVA in New York or something.. it's lik eI'm having a mid-life crisis and I'm only 20.. RgRGrGrg!!!1!!!1 (3 Comments |Comment on this)